My Mind's Process

HEB at Hancock Center in Austin, TX-photo by Sabrina LeBoeuf

    This morning I had reason to visit an HEB supermarket here in Austin. For those outside of Texas, HEB is one of the main supermarket chains here. I went to the HEB at the Hancock Center location. This used to be the HEB I visited most frequently when I lived in The Cherrywood area of Austin, just a short walk on the other side of Interstate 35. So when I entered it this morning I immediately sensed something was amiss.
    It turns out the entire interior had been renovated. The different food departments had been switched around, for example the fruits and vegetable section was on the opposite side of the store from where it once was. I know what you’re saying, “Who gives a shit?” I understand but this is not about the renovation of the store but rather about how the mind works. Because I was going to this store, there was some process in my brain that searched for my memories and experiences with this particular HEB location. It’s like the communication in my mind went something like this, “All right everyone he’s approaching the Hancock HEB, engage recall NFT569 in Temporal sector 37B.” Then all of those memories were uploaded to my frontal lobe. But when I crossed that HEB threshold, what I had expected wasn’t what my eyes saw. There was friction within the synapses of the brain causing confusion. I immediately said to myself this isn’t right and then said they must have changed things around. I had to think for a few seconds to remember how the old layout of the store actually looked. I ended up asking one of the HEB workers if they had changed around the store, which I knew at this point they had. He said they had and are at the end of a two year renovation. The idea is to make all HEB stores, where possible, to look exactly alike on the inside with the idea being anyone can walk in any HEB store and know where the different departments are located. I could care less about that. Actually I would prefer some variety but what does interest me is how our minds work.
    There are all kinds of processes that the mind uses to store our memories, experiences and information we’ve learned throughout our lives. And the mind uses many processes to recall that information. Of course people are different and have different learning capacities etc. Memories can be flawed. And there are debilitating diseases and injuries that affect one's brain power. I’m learning French right now and am having difficulty with not just remembering vocabulary but also with pronunciation. My mind wants to pronounce that “e” at the end of a word like you would in Spanish. It’s hard to break that connection. When I knew I was going to that HEB store I didn’t consciously think about what it looked like inside. Those thoughts didn’t enter my mind. I was just thinking about what items I was going to purchase. Yet those memories were there inside my mind and brought up somewhere between my conscious and sub-conscious on its own. I guess I’m glad that my mind still works well enough to where I can recall this information. As you get older those brain processes become compromised, especially our memories. There have been countless times where I’ve tried to remember things and have tried to enlist help from someone and the best I could do was, “You know that actor in that movie where he does that thing.” Terrible. Anyway I am fascinated with these little things that I experience at times.

Back in the US

  
Austin
    When I landed in Austin on October 30th, it certainly was a surreal moment. I think it would be that way for most people, at least somewhat. After all to be away in Europe for most of a year and then come back to The US, to Texas would make you feel that way. It was like I was a visitor or tourist in my own city. Several weeks later, I’m more or less back into the swing of things, as far as work and getting back into the grind. And also a year away, in the scheme of things isn’t that long. It certainly was profound and an exhilarating experience, and, at times, daunting.

Buffalo 86

Larry & me in his Buffalo State dorm room-there's vodka in my cup

    Recently an old friend of mine, Larry, passed away on Oct 15th. I met him when I was 8 years old and we became best friends soon after, right up through the end of high school and throughout our 20’s thru our 50’s. Of course we did different things throughout our lives and could go several months without talking, especially when I moved to Seattle in 2003 from NYC, where we grew up. After that, I visited NYC two times and he visited me in Seattle once. When we did talk, we’d be on the phone for at least 2 hours. The last time we talked was on his birthday last year, just before I left for my European adventure. The last contact with Larry was in May with other friends in a group chat about our exploits with the Brooklyn-Mobile years ago (that’s a story for another time). The last text he sent me was to wish me a Happy Birthday in September. I’m still processing he's passing, but it definitely doesn’t seem real. I’m sure it has something to do with the fact that we were thousands of miles apart and didn’t see each other a lot. In fact the last time I saw him in person was in 2008 when I visited NYC. Had I still lived in NYC, we would have gotten together on a regular basis and his absence would probably be felt much more than it is now. But as we do when our loved ones pass away, we celebrate them and remember them by telling stories. There is a story I’d like to tell about the photo at the top of this blog.

London Town

   
London
    Hey y’all. It’s been some time since I came at you in this blog to share my travel adventures thus far. Other than my updates of reminders of my photography prints for sale, and my summer discount, which I will do here again, Photo Sale, it’s been almost 3 months since my last entry.. It’s now been approximately 9 and half months since I began this adventure and I am trying to figure out what to do with my life.

Birthday Photo Sale

Fontaine des Quatre-Parties-du-Monde

 Hello Everyone, I'm in London. In my ongoing effort to earn some money and in celebration of my birthday, which is September 4th,  I'm having a birthday photo sale on my website, offering 25% of all photos prints. Basically I'm continuing the photo sale I started in August .

My Mind's Process

HEB at Hancock Center in Austin, TX-photo by Sabrina LeBoeuf      This morning I had reason to visit an HEB supermarket here in Austin. For ...